Because it is such a critical piece of our family story and my faith journey, I digress from the story of my dad to tell you about my mother’s cancer diagnosis.
My mother’s health was also seriously deteriorating – she was in constant pain from a crumbling spine; the only treatment was periodic steroid shots. She had high blood pressure and took multiple medications making her sleepy for several hours every morning. She required frequent trips to various doctors and medical personnel.
I took her to have an MRI on her back. We stopped at the grocery store, and as we came into the house the phone was ringing. It was her physician calling to say they found a tumor in her kidney. She was to see a specialty urologist as soon as possible. I was shocked and heartbroken.
I stayed at the house long enough to tell my dad when he got home. It was a rainy, dark Minnesota spring night. I drove the long way home on the side roads, tears falling down my cheeks the whole trip, listening to Christian radio. The song “Praise You in This Storm” by Casting Crowns came on. There are two lines that say:
“And though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm”
You are invited to listen to this song:
Did the message of the song apply to me?
- Praise God Mother likely has cancer?
- Praise God Dad has dementia?
- Praise God that their house is falling apart, they have no money?
At that time my husband and I had one adult son, and one very active teen-age son at home. I worked full-time at a stressful job requiring frequent travel. How could we deal with one more blow?
Did the song really mean to praise God in THIS storm?
My mother was diagnosed with renal cell carcinoma (cancer), and needed a kidney removed.
Ironically, coincidentally – or maybe by Divine providence – “Praise Him in This Storm” came on the radio periodically in the next several years when I needed it the most. I am still learning to “Praise You in This Storm”.
But that night I just cried.